I feel like a waste in this earth. My parents hate me and I lost trust in the man I love. Life is killing me right now.
Should I let him go so he can be happy?
I look at his pictures and I close my eyes and let the tears stream down my face
"I’m used to it"
Liars, heartbreaks, and forgiveness.
I was always taught to forgive. If someone hurts you, you forgive them for what they have done. You may not forget what they have done, but you have forgiven what they did to you and you move on. You don’t go and get revenge or try to make them feel the anger you feel inside. You simply say, “I forgive you for what you have done” and you move on.
Today I sit here and I have forgiven people who have hurt me. This week I was lied to by the one person I trusted with my whole heart. They lied to cover what they did wrong and my whole came crashing down. They thought they could get away with it but they got caught. I felt like I was worthless, like the moment they were doing their actions I was a nobody. My heart is heavy, I feel sick to my stomach. Every breath I take feels like I’ve been smoking for 50 years. I look at myself in the mirror and I cry. I can’t even get a smile on my face. I feel alone and depressed. Just when my life was slowly getting back together it came crashing down in a split second.
I lost trust in my best friend who was the love of my life. The person I’d go to for anything, the person I shared my life with, the person I gave my heart to. I knew something was wrong but I made myself believe everything was okay. I ignored the signs because I trusted. How can I be so stupid?